Okay, got the form done. It even works. Then I decided to install my digicam, because if it works, that's a lot easier to take pictures with on Wednesday. Um, no. <.g> It worked at first. I took several pictures of Kate and her room. They uploaded, they're on my harddrive, I can open them or send them. Then I tried taking a picture of me. And my room. And anything I could possibly find. Yeah, now we're getting errors. They won't upload, I can't take any snapshots, I am so confused. I don't know what's different! GRRRRRR!!!! I want to take pictures!!!!!!!!

Well, today I was supposed to do my Stats and EPS assignments due Thursday. I think that's getting bounced to tomorrow, however. Instead, today I shall fill out FAFSA forms (at least preliminarily) and finish creating the stupid INAAC form. I don't actually know how to create forms or make radio buttons, so hopefully I won't butcher this completely...

Whooo! MA and I played Literati. She was in the lead by, like, 20-30 points at any given time, right up until the end! I won, 220-202. Totally shocking. First I added a s to make "tempts" and got 21 points, then I just put an s down, creating "trices" and "pis" and got 12 points. <.g> We still don't even know what a trice is. LOL But how cool is that? I like playing against MA - she gives me a run for my money. <.giggle>

bedtime for rinas!

Geez, I'm bored! LOL I was going to watch Fantasia 2000, but DVD player on the computer is acting wonky, and kate and Meghan are downstairs watching Rebel Without a Cause. Which I could certainly join them for, but right now I'm in the mood for a new movie. I've seen Rebel many many times. LOL

So, my Jennie-girl and I are chatting instead, which is super fun of course, but I'm used to multi-tasking. I can't just chat with one person! I need more people online, or something to do. Oooh, I need to find someone to play Literati with me, over at yahoo games....that would be cool!

I downloaded a bunch of new music today - some were completely new to me, like the Jonatha Brooke and Dar Williams songs, both of which Lady K recced to me. Actually, she just sent me an e-mail full of more song recs that I'm going to have to investigate tonight and tomorrow. <.giggle> But then others were comfort songs like Chicago's You're my Inspiration and the Archie's Sugar Sugar. But my favorite one by far that I downloaded is Soul Asylum's One Way Train. I LOVE that song!!! Very exciting.

I love these MASH games!!! LOL I used to do them all the time in elementary school. Super fun. <.giggle>

WE'RE IN!!!! Uncle Marty called mom about 2. The party is Wednesday night. We have VIP tickets, which means we get to go in about 2 or more hours early. Oh, my GOD, it's really going to happen!!!!!

We were at the mall for two hours, shopping. I SO love Lerners. I got this awesome dark dark grey knee length skirt with leather trim at the waist, knee, and around the slightly high slit, a little black dressy-type shirt with two buttons only, dangly rhinstone earrings and black tights. All for $50! Big sales. <.g> I so have to get my digicam up so I can take some pictures of my cute new outfit. <.giggle>

Okay, so my plans for today are to clean my room and look into loans for next semester. I don't think I'll go to Meghan's after all. I think I'll just hang out here and watch my new DVDs - Daddy mailed me Snow White and Fantasia 2000!!!!!

It's only 12:45, but it feels like a 3 am. <.sigh> I think it's time for bed. I have a lovely day planned tomorrow, with or without Chicago, and it WILL be lovely, damn it.

Whooo!!!!! I got at least a B on the stats exam!! I counted up all the points I knew I got right, and it turned out to be an 80%, plus I purposefully lowballed myself on several. I am SO excited!!

Kate is driving me INSANE! LOL She's getting SO anxious about not hearing from Uncle Marty. And somehow, we're also going shopping tomorrow, "just in case." <.g> Well, we can return things if we don't wear them, I guess. But how did new outfits get into this?! Kate swore that she wouldn't buy anything special. I realize it's hard not knowing what's going on, especially since I am the Queen of Routines. I hate change, and I'm so not spontaneous. But there's nothing we can do!! It either happens, or it doesn't. And of course, she's still planning for Wednesday. I'm a bit leery of fake IDs, or borrowing IDs, but I guess it would be worth the risk. I just have to FIND an ID. Grrrr. I don't know, she just keeps harping on it, and it's losing fun for me.

Well, I feel fairly confident about the quiz. I bet I got at least a C. <.g> Really, I thought it went well, indeed.

What was not fun was mom calling right as I was outside waiting for Meghan. When I answered and she sounded rather upset, I immediately assumed that she was steeling me for bad news. Which she kinda was, but not the no-nsync thing I had first imagined. <.g> Still no word. But no, she was telling me how Mayor Daley had cut into the 5pm news with the announcement that they shouldn't be alarmed, but we should be prepared for more attacks in the next few days. Wow, SO not what I wanted to hear. I mean, seriously. That's terrifying and horrible and awful, and I'm scared. Mom and Dad want me to come home. I don't want to. This was my week, damn it. I called this week, starting tomorrow to be my week of bliss. I was going to get my two assignments done, and I was going to get ahead. I was going to have fun. Going home does not figure into that, unless it's coming home at 5am Saturday morning after partying with nsync, only to leave a few hours later.

This is so stupid, but I feel guilty. All along, I insisted to mom that no more attacks could happen until the week of the 15th, because that's the only time where I could work in dealing with it into my schedule. I didn't MEAN it! I don't want ANY more attacks, and I never did. And I don't think my witchiness caused it, but I hate that I said it, and here we are.

<.shallow>
I don't care if Chicago is a target or not, if I can meet Lance Bass, I will. I will be there, attacks or no.
<./shallow>

I'm not going to let myself get overwhelmingly afraid or anxious. There is nothing I can do if people are planning to attack us again. If there was, I'd do it, but there's nothing. Being afraid won't change what's going to happen, good or bad. So I won't be. I'm going to keep on living my life, shallow bits and all, because what else is there?

Rushing off to the stupid anatomy quiz. I'm way more prepared than I was last time, so wish me luck!!!! Then I'll be back between the quiz and my stats exam, in order to study mucho for that. Joy.

Argh? <.whimper> I heard back from the White Star Lounge guy. He was very nice, said he would be more than happy to add our names to the entry list, and hoped we had a lot of fun. Then he said we had to make sure to bring a "proper ID" showing us to be at least 21.

Aarti can go. Kate, however, is 6 weeks from her birthday. I'm 7 months away. (Exactly, now that I think of it. Oct11-May11. LOL)

Okay, new developments. <.g> Shortly after getting that e-mail and starting to write this (about an hour ago), I got a call from mom. Uncle Marty called her - seems his CTA contact says that the party is tomorrow night and that she might be able to get us in. Us meaning me and Kate, unfortunately, as mom didn't know Aarti was also planning to go. : ( So either, a, the CTA lady has her facts wrong, or b, we might get to go to a very private, unpublicized party. So, basically, everything is still up in the air. <.g>

Back to studying.

I'm beginning to wonder if Blogger will ever publish again. <.giggle> (That's the cue for this to go through....)

I studied quite a bit for stats last night. Over an hour, I think. It all makes sense when I'm reading over it. I know how to do each math problem. When she explains it, I go, "Oh, yeah! That makes perfect sense." I feel all confident because I know the formulas, I know the steps, I know everything - until confronted with a problem. <.g> Then I have NO CLUE what to do. I'm thinking that may present a bit of a problem. I'll just keep trying, I guess.

Every five minutes, I swear, Kate or Aarti is asking me if I've heard from my uncle or the Lounge guy. LOL It's kinda cute, but kinda annoying. If it happens, it happens. Out of the three of us, Aarti is the most excited, which is hysterical, because she keeps saying she's not a fan. LOL Oh, well. It would be fun to go - everyone who has cameos in the movie got invited, and that means Sammy Sosa will be there!! I was very excited to hear about that. Probably more excited than when I heard Lance and Joey were coming. LOL

Kate and I were talking today. We're both having problems this semester. We're not sure if it's the attacks or what, but we're not doing well in school. We can't concentrate, we forget assignments, we don't do assignments, our test grades are significantly down, it's horrible. Kate's worried that it might be the whole nsync thing, but I don't think so. I mean, I'm the Queen of Distractions, but I get my work done. But this is getting to be like last fall, but without the overwhelming depression part of it. It's not that I'm just having problems concentrating on school work, I have problems concentrating, period. Schoolwork, TV shows, stories, nsync, I can't do *anything for a long period of time. A lot of people I trust and respect have been having similar issues, being on edge, not wanting to go out and do things. I don't know. I just don't like feeling like this. I don't know how to make it better, though.

I was doing so well. Only 710 calories today - oatmeal for breakfast, 4 mcnuggets for lunch, 3 chiknuggets for a snack, and lots of water. Then came dinner. LOL Waffles with PB&J. This alone is pretty much 710 calories. <.g> Oh, well. Still under 1500, provided I don't try and snack during the West Wing premiere. <.giggle>

Studying pretty much flew out the damn window earlier this afternoon. I have to start again. Soon.

Well, I have messages in with my uncle and the White Star Lounge guy. Wish me luck.....

LOL Kate and I just spent the last 20 minutes giving each other pep talks on how we'll stay sane if we get to meet Lance and Joey. LOL We're insane. But I've agreed to slap her if she squeals and she's agreed to kick me if I start mumbling vowel sounds and have to run away. <.g> We refuse to be insane, freaky fans who, like, cry when they meet them. Because those fans are idiots, and we're really intelligent women.

And this intelligent women must now take a shower so she can study more for the 11am midterm, so she can come back to call her uncle and try desperately to find a way to above party.

ARGH!!!!!! AIM broke!!! I have no buddy list, I can't IM anyone. AOL isn't doing great, mail is having a hard time sending, and blogger isn't letting me publish. I am quite distressed.

Lance and Joey are coming to Chicago!! Next Wednesday! Thanks to the Loup and the Chicago Transit Authority. Okay, my uncle was a major top guy in the CTA for years and years, up until a few months ago. Wonder if he has any connections still?? And does the fact that the Loup service is for 13-18 year olds mean that the party is only for them? That's generally NOT the target audience for the Kiss.... I so must investigate this farther.

Also on that link, find your Nysnc nickname. I am Lance's Sexy Cuddletoy.

I have super fun plans for Friday!!!!!! Meghan invited me to go with her and some friends to Curtis Orchards and find pumpkins, then bring them back to her place to carve, drink apple cider and watch It's the Great Pumpkin, Charlie Brown! I am so excited.

Also, I took the time after lab to do some studying. I so know all of my muscles from lab #4. <.bows> I am very proud of myself. I might not fail the quiz. LOL Of course, now what I really have to study is Audiology. So, wish me luck!

Well, I did everything but do the lab assignment, and I could have studied more. Could be worse. I'll try and do the lab tomorrow afternoon, and study more after Angel.

Aarti is cooking something for her sister downstairs, and I think I'm allergic. All of a sudden, I smelled something, and my throat got scratchy and my nose got itchy and my eyes got watery. No fun.

I'm trying to find the "On the Line" MP3, 'cause I can't seem to find or download the one Miggie has, and all I found was the new nsync song "Falling" which is also on the soundtrack. I like that one, too, but I want On the Line! LOL

Angel was too depressing. ER's been depressing all season. Both eps. <.g> Buffy made me cry. I don't like these trends. Where's my funny?

Oh, wow. Remember my friend Amy, who lived by WTC 7 and can't really get back to her place for a few weeks or months? She's the one who gave me the Eden Riegel autograph when I was in Maryland. It turns out that Eden actually lives (lived?) in the same apartment building that she does (did)! She apparently had much more damage, since she faced the WTC, unlike Amy.

I'm instructed Kate to not let me stay up later than 10 or 10:30 tonight. I am SO TIRED!!! AUGH! Plans for today:

10 - Stats
11 - Audiology class review
12 - drag Lauren to computer lab to do lab assignment
1 - stupid icky anatomy class that will be passed watching my watch to see who pops up
3 - study audiology
6:30 - head to Lauren's to transcribe 5 minutes of Land Dev tape with her and Meghan
8 - study audiology

Sounds kinda manageable...

Witness how little work is getting done. I still have 3 math problems left! but E! is doing a Buffy night - right now is Aly and Alexis doing the celebrity adventure, and they are really so adorable together. I love it. It's so weird hearing Alexis without an English accent. <.giggle> And next is "Buffy's Back" about the start of the new season.

I really am determined to get the stats done, however. Then tomorrow I can study for audiology, Tuesday for stats and Wednesday for anatomy.

Lance has a cocker spaniel named Lexi. I swear I'm ready to burst into tears - she looks so much like my Liesl. What a beuatiful, beautiful, beautiful dog.

I want my baby back.

I've been trying to get work done today, but I'm not being very productive. I'm nearly done with my stats homework, however, which is a good thing. I've had a news channel on mute pretty much all day - ABC and MSNBC on flips. That's how I learned the Emmys were canceled. Mom told me they would be (right when she told me the attacks would happen in about an hour or two. She was dead on with both), but I had kinda hoped she'd be wrong. I started flipping through other channels about 15 minutes ago. I couldn't stand to see the words anymore, even tempered by listening to Tchaikovsky's Greatest Hits. So I found out that Colin Firth's Pride and Prejudice is on A&E right now.

Now that's Must See TV.

It started. We're bombing Afghanistan. I'm not ready for this. Neither is the MSNBC lady. Her voice is shaking.

<.shallow>
I wanted to watch the Emmy's tonight. Will they still be on?
<./shallow>

I'm back!! I went to my first frat party, and survived. <.giggle> It was kinda fun, actually, but I preferred the bars we went to before hand. We hit Murphy's and Legends, and then the party. I did drink a little - it turns out that I love Mike's Hard Lemonade and Jack Daniels Hurricane Punch. LOL I just don't feel comfortable drinking outside my home yet. I most likely would have drunk a LOT more of the Hard Lemonade had I not suddenly had a panic attack that somehow I'd be caught on the way home, underage drunk. <.g> Kinda took the fun out, but it's a valid fear, I think. So I'll ask Kate to get some for her party in November, and have fun then! When my room is just a few jumps up the stairs.

Kate did my hair, too, and it turned out really cute. She curled it and everything! Wish I had my digital camera hooked up!! I'd show pictures. : )